By this time in my life I thought that I would be settled into domestic bliss with a family and a beautiful home. Ok, yea I know it would not be blissful all the time but we all have that fantasy somewhere in the back of our minds. So as you can tell from my opening statement I am not living in wedded bliss and I do not have children. I think out of the fantasy the one thing I do have is my own home. I am very proud of that but I want more. I am not sure exactly what I want though, but I do know I want more.
Wanting more has led me to seriously think about my life and the people in it. I love everyone who enters my life. I love them because they make me better. At the same time they make me worse. I am better because I want to make their worlds better and in turn I give more of myself and become a better person. This is also what makes me worse. I give so much of myself that there is nothing left for me. There is no one out there feeding my soul or looking after me.
I think a lot of people don't think I need the same soul feeding that they need because I am the one always feeding others. They figure that I have my life put together. But the truth is no one has their entire lives put together. There is always room for people to love and care for me. Many people around me would say, "You are loved." They would be right, but just like them I need people to show me that love and make me feel it to my core.
I am looking to start feeding my soul. I want adventures to lead me to my happiness. I know happiness is not found in things, places or other people but I am hoping these things will help me find my happiness inside myself.
So let the adventure begin!
I know there are many who feel the same way. Please let me know your thoughts.
