After the movie I went downtown. There was a festival going on and I wanted to check it out. As I was driving I passed this little Italian restaurant that I have been wanting to try for a while. I noticed it was open. So I parked and went in. It was a nice cozy little place that would be perfect to take someone out on a first date. When I walked in there was an older couple sitting enjoying a glass of wine and good conversation. They looked very happy.
The waitress sat me near a window and went on about her business. I looked over the menu. Everything on it sounded so yummy. After putting in my order I looked out the window at all the cars passing by and the park across the way. I loved the feeling that I was getting from this place. It made feel like I was in a fifties dinner, just sitting watching time pass me by.
While waiting for my meal I began thinking about those would haves and should have. I began thinking about my ex and how much I missed him and that I would like to be back together with him. But then I stopped because I knew I was just thinking of all the good times. I did not think of all the bad times that we went through. Then it dawned on me. He would never be in this little restaurant, And if he was it would be just to humor me. There would be no enjoyable conversion or thinking of the future. It would be a quiet dinner with barely any talking and a lot of can we go now.
That's when I realized I was happy to be there by myself. I have never been the one to need a man in my life. But I have always wanted one. The man that I want is someone who truly wants to be with me, for who I am. Until that guy comes into my life I am happy to take myself out for date nights. I will not be ashamed or embarrassed to be out alone. For I know until that right man comes into my life I will take myself out and treat myself the way I know I should be treated.
